Companion Stories: Jan

Photograph of Jan

"For me Emmaus was my last chance. It's really been good for me right from the start. It's given me a reason for everything, to get my life back on track.

I was living on the streets for a while, getting away from an abusive partner. When I first came I couldn't do anything, wouldn't talk to people and kept myself to myself. I'm gradually coming out of my shell, talking to other Companions and staff, making friends again like I never used to in the past, when I was on the street. On the streets you don't think about anyone else, you keep yourself to yourself. You're just out to look after yourself. It's been a whole new learning process, learning to make friends again and live with people.

A lot of the guys come and talk to me when they've got problems. When I first came I was really scared being surrounded by men, with my background of violence and everything, but I've fitted in. For a couple of months I was the only woman but it's been alright. I've not had any problems with the guys. I've made some really good friends from the other Companions. I've made some friends outside Emmaus as well and spend time with them. I've got a whole new life now, it's not just Emmaus but a life outside as well.

I had two choices, come to Emmaus or go to a hostel. At Emmaus I've been able to get up and work, not just getting on with life as it would have been in a hostel. For about a year I was working in the bistro and since then I've been in bric a brac. I enjoy working, though you get a few stressful days, like you do anywhere I suppose.

There have been tough times on the way but it's really good here. Emmaus has been there to help me. Staff here and volunteers and everyone has been so good, been helpful and understanding, you can't fault them.

I'm not in a hurry to move on from the Community. This is the first time I've felt safe in 15, 16 years. No matter where I go in my life I'll always look back and be grateful for Emmaus; it was my turning point in life for definite. It's something I'll always be grateful for."